One Year

Today was emotional for me.  I didn't think that it would be, but I was wrong.  As we drove back from a quick trip to see my brother in Columbus early this morning I was watching the clock thinking back to what was going on at the same time last year.  How we were so excited to meet a baby that would change our lives, little did we know how much that change would be.  How after thirty minutes of pushing, at 5:31am on October 23rd he was placed on my stomach and in that moment my heart burst with love.  And then how only a few short minutes later he was taken to the NICU for eight long days.   As a parent I think that one of the worst things to see is your child hooked up to machines in the hospital.  I can still visualize what that looked like and it physically hurts me to think about.  The first night he spent out of the hospital was Halloween.  I never once thought about what "baby's first Halloween" costume I should get for him because I was just so thankful that he was healthy and home.  

This year has gone by faster than any other, and yet so much has changed.  I can honestly say that I have embraced motherhood and lived in the moment.  There were times that I didn't change out of my pajamas and didn't do a single thing around the house because I was taking care of my little bundle.  I do not regret those days at all.  There were countless early mornings and late nights, but we made it through.  This is the most important job I will ever have, and its the only job that I have truly loved.  I have been blessed beyond my wildest imagination.  

Thank you Sullivan for being you, and for being the sweetest and most perfect addition to our family.  I will love you forever and ever.

xoxo,

Momma